Alone Again

You came over again last night. I was worried that you were losing interest after the last time you came over, but last night has revitalized my hope. Kind of.

After a couple of drinks, we went out back and were playing with the dog. We talked about your schooling and somehow got on the topic of two-step. You decided to teach me how to dance it since I didn't know. Turns and all. And then you just kept chatting with me while we danced. Apparently the next time we hang out, we're gonna go to a country bar so we can dance and you can karaoke.

I decided to play the piano while I was tipsy. You sat next to me and watched and listened intently when I told you a piece of his chapter. You traded my story with one of your own and in that moment we were both vulnerable.

I took a walk with you and Flit around the block. I'm glad you two get along. Pocahontas and I haven't been friends long enough for me to seriously value her opinion on who I like, but you and Flit not getting along would break whatever relationship we have.

The night climaxed and we fell asleep together. You kept my blankets warm for me. It was nice not being a tiny bit cold all night long. I'll have to deal with that again tonight. And I woke up this morning to your handsome face. I definitely could get used to that but it'll be weeks if it ever actually happens again.

So now i'm alone again. Big bed all to myself and no one to fall asleep and wake up to. I'll be lonely in the coming week or so, but i'll get used to being by myself again. Hopefully sooner than I think.

The Story of Hank Williams

He started out as a smiley face on a note that said "Cheer up, Buttercup." Together, we expanded on him. I named him Hank, you gave him the last name of Williams.

I thought he was adorable as is, but then you had to bump in with him.

I wanted him to be the 3rd but when you decided to give him more than just a pretty face, you renamed him Jr. Something about country singers, fathers, and sons. 

Today, I gave him a little song to sing and a Spanish word. He's also apparently a mini now. 

So that's the story of Hank Williams Jr. I also realized I spelled vaquero wrong later on in the day and corrected it. I really hope nobody erases him, cause he's adorable.

The Reappearance of Miyagi

So he's been back for about a week now. And I'm really happy. I knew I missed him, I just didn't know how much I really missed him.

He didn't shave at all when he was on vacation, so when he got back he had some nice scruff going on. He either had to shave it or trim it for work and his original plan was to shave it off but after I mentioned that I liked it, he decided to trim it.

He told me that my eyes are mesmerizing when I wear eyeliner. The black line just brings you straight to my eyes and the brown keeps you in I guess?

If we're at work, I can look up at him, and 75% of the time he's already looking at me. And he's not embarrassed at getting caught looking at me. He'll even hold my gaze for a minute before going back to work.

I was washing my hands the other day and he touched me as he walked by. Usually when he touches me at work, it's to tickle me, but when he touched me then, it was more of a caress. It just feels so natural to be touched by him.

This boy drives me crazy. He's coming over this weekend and I'm really excited.

Drunk Blogging

Alrighty so it's January 1st. And I'm gonna start of this new year by bitching. Cause I've been drinking and i've had enough of this bullshit.

SO. My dad is dating this lady. Two of her daughters are in town for the holidays (the third one lives here full time). Last night, I get a Snapchat about how they're out at a show/ drinking "with the fam." I was not there. Nor was I invited. That peeved me.

I also found out yesterday that my dad was going to propose to said lady tonight. I get another Snapchat from one of her daughters saying "#FU for not being here." Oh, I'm sorry that I don't want to be out driving on the night that everybody decides to drive drunk. I'M TRYING TO BE FUCKING SAFE. so excuuuuuse me. Super pissed at this point, and it didn't help that I had been drinking when she sent me that. I sent her a snap back. Not my finest moment, but I don't care right now.

I get that i'm the black sheep of this 7 person family, but there's no reason to act this way towards me. I generally try to be nice to my family. But girl, if you start swinging, don't expect me to just stand there and take it; I'll be swinging right back at you.




Also, I really miss him and I'm super excited for him to be back on Thursday. And then I get to see him Sat-Tues  :)

Good Night all! Happy 2014