I've been collecting things from before my parents divorce. Wedding, anniversary, and life pictures. The wedding invitations and marriage certificate. It's my childhood. I looked through their wedding album all the time as a little girl and they got married because of me.
I have our last picture as a family in my room. The lady at Whataburger called us the "Yellow Family" cause we were all matchy matchy for our photo session. It was freshman year. I also have a family picture with my mom and step dad from my senior year. I decided to compare them today.
I always thought my mom looked fairly happy in the yellow picture. But as soon as I put them side by side, you could automatically tell; She's happier with Frank than she ever was with my dad.
I knew she had been pretending her happiness with Dad for awhile. She told me and my sister almost a year before she finally left that her and Dad were having trouble and that they were probably going to get a divorce. I never realized how unhappy she was though.
My dad gave me the pictures from their cruises together last week. I was looking at them today and realized that my mom was faking her smile in every single one. Every one.
She left my Junior year. The first cruise was probably my freshman year. That's 2+ years of suffering that I had been completely oblivious to. I broke down.
Cried like a little baby.
I love my mother to death, and I'm so glad she's finally found the happiness that she deserves.
ILY F+A Mommy Dearest <3
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