Sally Mae

These past couple of weeks have been different. You've been more talkative and open. It's really nice, but it seems strange at the same time. I'm not used to talking to you this much. Last Friday, we had a conversation about how people thought we were dating even though we're just really good friends at this point. These interactions are making me think you may want differently:

I thought it was weird that you wanted me to eat lunch with you when I got off work on Friday (Valentines day no less) and we ended up talking for an hour. You gave me a kiss on my cheek when we parted ways. You also invited yourself over for the weekend.

You were supposed to come over Saturday night after you got off work, but a couple of things came up. Instead of rescheduling for next weekend or something, you wanted to know if you could come over Sunday night instead. That seemed really strange, especially since we were going to work for 6 hours together before you were gonna come over. But I agreed because I wanted to see you.

So you came over last night. We were kinda cuddling on the couch talking with Flit and her guy and you brushed my hair back, even though it wasn't in my face at all. You kept kissing me on the forehead and on the top of my head. Don't get me wrong, it was really nice and comforting, I just don't really know what to think anymore. You also kept wrapping your arms around my waist whenever we were standing. Again, really nice and comforting, but now i'm confused.

You were also really touchy feely when we went outside to goof off like we usually do on Sunday nights. You just kept hugging me. And you pinned me down and started tickling me.

The most confusing part though was when you came into work today. You bought a truck, and you wanted to come show me. That was actually a thought that passed through your mind. I don't think it was to show everybody, because you could have just come in at 3 for your shift and just told people about it and showed pictures on your phone. But you walked through the door and the first thing you did was find me, lock eyes, and hold up a key so I could see it. I didn't understand and I didn't really get to see your truck since we were busy, but now that I know, it's kind of a "Duh" moment.

I just want us to be more than friends. It feels like we are. You kiss me like you want me as more than a friend, and you keep talking about doing things together. I hope we get to do them. Take me for a ride in your new truck, throw a baseball around with me. Let's go to a country bar and two-step. I'll listen to you sing Karaoke and be the envy of all the girls that want you. Because when we're together outside of work, you're not afraid to kiss me and wrap your arms around me.

Do you see what I see?

10

I'm up to double digits now. 2 more piercings done today. I got my nipples done about 4 hours ago and it went much better than I thought it would. It's just now that they throb.

I asked you to go with me, not expecting that you would. But you did, and you even offered to hold my hand while she was doing it. I would have let you but I knew you weren't allowed to be near the chair.

You also didn't mind being stuck in a car with me for an hour while we dealt with traffic. It was nice having you supporting me and comforting me.

But yeah, 10 piercings now. and I'm still not done :)

Flogging Molly

I'd been feeling doubtful lately. It just didn't seem like we were connecting like we usually do. I actually ended up crying about it yesterday because it felt like you were done but weren't going to tell me.

I went into work today expecting to enjoy your company but not have the same banter as we usually have. I was right about both, but that's because our banter was more involved than usual. Not only that but it seemed like you really needed to be close to me.

Me doing dishes, you come over to drain something and standing so close your arm is firmly touching mine. There's more than enough space for you to not have to do that. Me standing at the wash sink and you come up behind me to grab gloves and being so close I can almost feel your chest rising against my back. Me standing at the register, you writing dots on the divider just a hair away.

You were flirty and we talked about things that mattered to us, like tattoos and our plans for them. We played with the water, spraying each other and laughing until our tummies hurt. We were cleaning up and you randomly came over and stood almost chest to chest with me and handed me one of your headphones. "This is the kind of music I like listening to"

You stole glances when you thought I wasn't looking. Peripherals are great for noticing. I pretended not to notice for you, but had to smile when I saw the smile spread across your face every time you looked.

My hope is renewed and i'm sure i'll have dreams about us tonight. I can't wait to see you tomorrow and I hope I see you outside of work this weekend. Maybe you'll take me to a country bar like you promised or maybe we'll just hang out here.

Either is fine, as long as I'm with you