I've been thinking about my future lately. And today it was really weighing on my mind. I'm working towards my future career, so not much I can change about that. My big thing is my love life.
Where am I going to go after he's gone? I've got just about 2 months left with him. And then what? It's so hard for me to make friends, let alone go out on a date with someone.
I have what people refer to as resting bitch face. My natural, neutral face makes me seem unapproachable. In fact, I can't think of a single time that I've been approached in public. Everybody that has hit on me, has known me for awhile. Whether seeing me at work all the time and learning that i'm not what my face projects or what idk.
And even as a sort of self defense mechanism, until I get to know you a little better, I come off as an elitist bitch as well. I don't know how to make small talk, I feel like i'm getting all up in your business. I cannot keep a conversation going to save my life. And it seems like i'm uninterested.
That's really hard to work around.
Where is the road going to go after he leaves? Will I be alone for the rest of my life? I realize that it's probably unlikely; someone else will come along, but I can't help but worry.
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