Tidbits

Nothing has really changed between us these last couple of weeks. Little tidbits just keep popping up that reassures me that this isn't a one sided thing.

Your birthday was just around 2 weeks ago and I got you a massage that you'd been wanting for awhile. You looked so much happier when your hour was up. We went to the mall to kill some time before our appointment and you really wanted ice cream. We ended up eating at a Fro Yo place and as we were sitting there talking, I took a small scoop of your yogurt cause I wanted to try the cheesecake flavor. You stopped for a minute and said "Did you just take some of my ice cream?" I told you yes and explained why and you told me that you didn't ever share your food with anyone. I offered an explanation and you told me that I didn't understand; that you were really protective over your food. Jokingly i said "aww well then I'm special." You just kinda smiled to yourself and looked away neither confirming nor denying.

Last Sunday when I showed up for my shift you told me I had to come see something. You were super excited about it which made me think you were just playing a prank on me. When you opened up the cooler door, my favorite flavor of monster was sitting there on the shelf. I asked you why later and you told me "I was just at the store getting some stuff for myself and I was thinking about you so I got you one."

When we were at work last night, you came over and gave me a hug. Nothing abnormal, you're pretty huggy now which is adorable. But when you pulled back, you had a look on your face I didn't recognize. I don't know what it was or what you were feeling and I can't get it out of my head. It was a small smile but it was more your eyes. Something in them I hadn't seen before. I saw the same face about 5 minutes later but haven't seen it since. You also helped me jump my car last night after I left the lights running all day like an idiot (seems to be a common occurrence....) When you called your brother to see if he had jumper cables, (I do but my trunk apparently runs on electricity and dead battery = no opening of the trunk. Also my key doesn't fit for some dumb reason?), you didn't tell him that your coworker or your friend needed them. It was "My girl."

You came over last night too. When you were leaving I stood at the door and watched you start your truck like I always do (it takes so long with everything you have to do and is funny to me). Usually when it starts is when I go back inside. I waited a little bit longer last night; I wanted to watch you drive away. You got into your truck and just looked at me for a bit. I laughed a bit and told you to go home. "Go inside honey" We went back and forth 2 or 3 times; one of those "no you hang up first" kind of moments. I caved and went inside but watched you drive away from the window. You saw me standing there still and gave me a wave before you left. It was sweet.

When we were working together tonight, you turned to me and said (no context) "you get to see the goofy side of me. What I was like before she hurt me." Fairly confused i just said "ok?" and asked if that was a good thing or a bad thing. You said it was a good thing and we had a fairly short conversation about that. It's more that you think about this kind of stuff when we're together. How you act around me and how you feel happier and like your old self.  I also started to notice tonight that you've started to stand in my way if I'm trying to pass you in the no camera zone. The only way to get pass you is to give you a kiss; kind of like a password. You also followed me around for almost a minute before I turned and asked what you were doing. You gave me a quick kiss and said "That's all I wanted" and went back to work.




You mean so much to me. You listen to me talk about my hatred for Frank (the co-worker not the stepdad) and the fascination I have with awesome personalized license plates (disl3xk was the one i saw today) I can bitch about my girls and how much I hate the customers and you just listen to me with the cutest little smile on your face. When I'm done you just tell me to give you a hug and then you lean back a bit and tell me to give you a kiss.

Maybe I was wrong about you being a teddy bear.