Desires

Lately I've been restless. I want to run, explore, and create.

I want to run away from the things that haunt me. Run into adventure and excitement. Run into a feeling of complete bliss.

I want to explore the world around me. Explore everything with him. Go to the next town and explore every crook and cranny. Explore his home state; see the beauty that he paints for me whenever he talks about it. Find a pretty place in the woods to talk about our dream home. Discuss life and the future.

I want to create beautiful things. I want to make ornaments and meaningful things. I want to make dinner and sweets. I want to create things to put on the wall and things to use everyday.

I have no money, I have no time. These things will be done eventually. I won't have anything to run away from anymore. I'll be able to explore the world. With him and with friends. I'll create things. For myself and for others. For my children, for the future.

It'll all be okay one day.


At least that's what I keep telling myself.