Blazin'

It's been years since i've felt this happy. You're blazin' a trail through my life. A trail of sunshine. I can't go 10 seconds without thinking how amazing you are and how much you complete my life. You're there, always. Even now when i'm at NIACC, my mind keeps telling me that you'll be coming down the stairs any minute now and you'll sit next to me and we'll talk and giggle and grand ole time as usual.

It's also been years since i've had a true nightmare. Yeah sure I've had scary dreams. Or no dreams at all, which is almost kinda scary too. But a nightmare? I don't remember the last one I had. And I don't ever remember having dreams this intense. It felt like it was actually happening. And that scares me so much. Justin had kidnapped me and was torturing me. And he was playing on my emotions and keeping me from running away or doing anything about it by torturing Mili. As much as I dislike Mili, she's still a human being. She still has feelings and she feels pain. My empathy overpowered my need to protect myself. It always will and dream Justin knew that. Luke played the hero in the nightmare. I told him he needed to call the police, that Justin was crazy and torturing us. But the police were stupid and called me to make sure that he wasn't lying. More torturing ensued. Screams that I don't think I can ever forget still ring in my mind. I don't want to sleep again. I don't know how I slept after that nightmare. But my mind gave me a break and I went back to my usual darkness. AKA non dream land

You were there comforting me. I don't know why you did, but i'm glad you were there. I don't think I would've been able to stay in the house after that dream. At least not that night. I would've had to drive around, cry, be cold cause it's winter in Iowa again, just nowhere near the house. This dream is going to haunt me for awhile. And I doubt it'll be the last time I see it. It'll be in the back of my mind whenever I fall asleep, and my brain will pull it forward and I'll relive it once again. I hope you're ok with losing sleep. And if not, then you should stay at your house. I have a feeling you'll be losing a lot of it.