Cloud 900

Never in a million years would I have believed you if you said all the way back in July that Justin would hate me right now and that I would be dating my best friend. In fact, I still don't believe it, and we've been dating for like what? 10 hours now? Wow isn't that a lifetime haha :)

I know I moved on fast, I know people are going to talk, I know people will say that I cheated or that i'm a slut, or even that I didn't really care about Justin. But none of it's true. I didn't start falling for Luke until after Justin decided I wasn't worth his time. I just happened to take a nosedive instead of falling with style. And i'm ok with that. At this point in time, I am the happiest I have ever been while living in Iowa. Which is astounding to me. I was engaged. To an asshole none the less, but still engaged.

There's a song that's been running through my head for a couple of days now. This is that song. While it's very cheesy, it's still true.

And we're gonna be the talk of the 'office'. Which I already am because of the whole Justin debacle, but this is different. Especially since people won't be talking to us about it, they'll be talking to each other and keeping us out of the loop. Many people will be surprised. That's just cause like absolutely no one knew that we were even friends, let along best friends. But dating doesn't change that at all. It just adds another layer of things on. Like an onion haha :)

Luke and I talked about this a little bit this morning, but when I was in jr. high just starting to like guys, my dad told me that one day I was going to marry my best friend. Me being me, my response was "But my best friend is a girl. I don't wanna marry a girl dad!" But I realize that marriage is jumping the gun by just a lot, but you have to fall for someone before you marry them. And i'm falling hard. I'm not trying to insinuate anything since I JUST got out of a relationship that obviously moved too fast, so i'd prefer to move a bit slower and marriage is the farthest thing from my mind right now.

This morning I was shaking I was so happy. I'm still on cloud 900. There are very few things that could bring me off of this -natural- high. (oh snap! What now bitch?) I love Luke. I know him and I are going to be amazing together and that he's going to be 10x better that Justin in every single way imaginable. He won't give up, he won't leave, and he will never hurt me on purpose. How do I know this? It's in his gorgeous blue eyes. The windows to the soul.

I'm still on such a high, I have no idea what to write. More for later I suppose :)