See-Through Skies

I don't know why, but I feel invisible today. Just like nobody cares or wants me here. I basically had to fight tooth and nail to ride with Justin, Jeff, and Whitney today. There's no reason for that at all. "We don't have enough room" "You're not getting ready fast enough, we're going to be late." I feel like he's in a relationship with Jeff and Whitney instead of me too. He tells them things that boyfriends usually tell their girlfriends. But i'm his girlfriend, and the only way i'm hearing about them is cause i'm nearby when he says something about it. Betrenna was talking to me at our table and she just kept yapping on and on and on. I feel like i'm visibly depressed, and she didn't notice. Neither did Jeff, who is incredibly perceptive. Just yap yap yap. I don't know if I can hang out with these people anymore. They're not my friends, they're Justins. Something may have come up. And it can't be fixed if it's really there. My darling Flit knows what i'm talking about. I'm so scared. I can't deal with this right now, and I don't have the resources or the time to do so. I guess I'll find out over the next couple of months. Hopefully it's nothing. Dear god I hope it's nothing. I almost didn't get to sign up for classes today. I went in this morning all ready to go and learn and turn my grades around, and I have an unpaid amount from last semester. So even though I took the full $5,500 out, I still owed like $600. So I had to sign an agreement that said I would pay $50 from every paycheck until my amount was paid. So that's like the next 11 paychecks, or the next 5 1/2 months that I have to do that. Not happy about that. This one isn't going to end on a happy note either. I'm not even feeling a smidgen of happiness, or even hope for that matter. I have until the end of the month to find a new place and move out of this one. I can't believe we're just giving up on this house. That makes me sad too. So many memories over the last 4 months, gone. Anyways, I need to go do something else to get my mind off of things.